Grateful To Allah

Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim

I feel so blessed recently. It is like rain is falling, washing away all of the stress, the pain, the sins, and the struggles of the last few months. The difficulties, of course, haven’t disappeared - they never do - but I feel like I finally have a chance to breathe. Regroup. Listen.

I am so grateful to Allah, ar-Razzaq, for providing me with a job! I got hired yesterday at a new human-powered search engine where I can work from home. I will have to work much more to make the same amount of money, but I have been looking for a desk job for months because of my health problems. Insha’Allah it will work out and I will be able to just do this from home in front of my computer or else use it to supplement another job and not kill myself standing on my feet anymore. Truly, He is the provider and sustainer.

I am grateful to our Rabb and to our Ummah for the support that is so abundant. I didn’t know how I would learn Arabic and I met a teacher online by chance. I didn’t know how to cope with the possibilities and trials brought up by the chance to study in Egypt, but things are falling into place…after years of having an elusive dream of studying abroad, it’s starting to seem like a reality. I didn’t know how I would access texts and learn because I don’t really have money for books and CDs, but I have found so much material online and from non-Muslim friends of mine who study Islam that it is just overwhelming. I didn’t know how I would cope with radically changing my life and lifestyle to be able to truly follow the teachings of our Prophet salallahu alayhi wa salaam but Alhamdulillah I have slowly been able to make changes and have gained so much support even when I have had to ask difficult questions or confront issues that are often left in the background.